in the dead of night

all the lingering light has been destroyed by the rapid falling night.

even the moon has lost some of it's radiance.

 

 it's 2:14 am,

and the dark is claustrophobic,

the silence is tangible,

the stillness is paralyzing.

 my eyelids are as light as a feather

my thoughts are racing and i'm too slow to catch them.

all i know is that they're all about you.

  i caught a quick glimpse of your unforgettable smile

i saw a flash of your hair

i heard your laugh. 

i wish my brain would just work

so i could see you.

 i finally catch one.

but sad memories move slower than the happy ones.

the memory: the day we said good bye.

the day your dad told me you were gone, because your mom was a mess.

 the day i forgot how to breathe

the day i set fire to my heart because it was less painful that way.

 

 i'm done chasing.

i'm too slow for the good memories.

 

 it's 3:27 am,

 and the dark is claustrophobic,

the silence is tangible,

the stillness is paralyzing.

 my eyelids are as light as a feather

my thoughts are racing and i'm too slow to catch them.

all i know is that they're all about you.